Now I am a 60 year old white female . a resident of Baltimore Maryland for over 30 years and until this incident I have never encountered racism of the sort you are about to read in all these years.
June 30, 2020 I stopped by Home Depot to pick up some dirt
This June day I went straight to the check out lane. I smiled at the check out person and said “Good Morning, I need to purchase 4 bags of ‘Miracle Grow Garden soil’. The young check out girl seemed distracted like she didn’t hear me. So I said. “Excuse me Miss? Miss?” Was this child hard of hearing? I didn’t understand what was going on. She was looking off in a different direction. Then she says, ” I can’t help you?” “well that’s ok I just need a few bags of ‘Miracle Grow Garden Soil’ see it’s right here” I pointed it out on her picture layout register screen. But she was having none of it. She picked herself up and walked away. I looked at the line of customers behind me, every one of them black. Not one would meet my eyes. I see.
I guess the joke was on me. A 20 year old black girl wearing Gucci sweatpants and on the job, is claiming her revenge on a period of slavery she never experienced with a 60 year old white woman with parents having escaped Hitler’s concentration camps not even 80 years ago. As for this girl? Does she matter? No, she does not. Does she matter because she is black? No. she does not. Does she deserve respect? Yes. she does. because she is God’s child. Does she deserve a job at Home Depot where she can play out her racial biases? That’s a question for her manager. As a rule none of us matter. What is it to matter anyway? Mattering is a human choice. If you are lucky enough to have family then you might matter for some years. But you know people pass. I don’t matter. I know that. My dog Cujo matters. Because my dog matters I’m going to euthanise him soon. He’s peeing all over my apartment and his breathe is terrible with gum disease. I know he’s in pain but I love him so much. But the vet says it’s time. So, I have to.. he matters… anyway As a rule people don’t matter. If your goal in life is to stand in the street and cry you matter that’s a soft dart. Want to hear something really huge about yourself. I mean Mindblowing!!! Get Ready! Sit Down! Each and Every one of You is Sacred! Much better then making everyone say “Okay Already, you matter! Can we go home now?!” Non-Believers? No worries, you don’t have to believe in God or Church. He believes in you! God chose to create each person that’s here. God Chose you individually to be here! You lucky stiffs, with this realization the people of this world have no choice but to look upon the faces of one another and show honor and grace, kindness and understanding.
You are perfect.
So when you see one another, Sacred souls that God chose to put on this Earth, remember most people don’t matter to any person maybe not even to their own self, but each is sacred and loved by God, so honor him with kindness and understanding, exercise your own sacredness.
Remind yourself, God loves him as much as me. Be kind. Be the sacred soul you are. Let your true greatness shine and become the person you were born to be. I promise you will feel your heart grow with the understanding of Truth!!! That this is why you are here…and this is why you were born…. and that’s the only thing that really matters.